Missing

Today I realised something was missing ~ the 10000 hour dash and hug Mummy after school.

It's gone! Quietly and surreptitiously it has sloped off and disappeared,without me even noticing it!Gone and maybe forever!!! 

How did that happen?How did I not realise that it had gone?

Something so important to me and so noticeable disappearing before my very eyes and me not noticing....what sort of mummy does that make me!

A sad one now that I have realised that it has gone.

And this is the bad bit,it's been gone for months! 10 months infact! 

And I never realised!

Flippin eck,slack mother or what.

Something happened this morning that made me mull this over in my mind.

I watched a little boy being dropped off at nursery by his dad and the dad bent down to the boys level and the boy literally leapt into his dads arms and gave him such heartfelt snuggly goodbye that it melted my heart and played in my head from the moment onwards.

My thoughts ranged from awwww to why did that goodbye seem so touching.

I think it was the run to the dad and the way the dad scooped the boy up in his arms and the ruffle of the boys hair and the words 'See you later,son' and maybe,just maybe it was the smile on the little boys face as he walked into my room,that made me melt

And I've been melted all day by it.

Sometimes,make that lots of times I get to witness real magical stuff,working where I do.

And that got me thinking of how children greet their parents after school and I smiled at how my Chipso used to greet me and then it hit me that he doesn't do it any more!

 Not. At. All.

Let me tell you how it used to be....

Basically I would be bowled over!

Literally bowled over! 

This little curly haired boy would spot me and run all the way to where I stood yelling "Muuuuumeee" in a voice that a village loudcrier would be proud of.

And woe betide you if you were stood in his path because he wouldn't stop,oh no,he would run straight through you.

Wise people would see him thundering towards me and move quickly out of the way....either that or be squished.

Because there was only one thing on that little boys mind and that was how to get to his mummy.

The other parents used to grin as he would launch himself into my arms,nearly knocking me over with his enthusiasm and this became routine and his signature move the knock mummy over hug

It lasted through reception and into year one.It was going strong in year two and transferred over to the juniors for year three but it was in year four it disappeared.

Chips class was right round the back of the school and the parents were not allowed to wait outside the classroom door anymore.

So I meet Chips the nearest possible place to his classroom,under the shady trees in my corner

And he saunters around,not a run in him,always last,always ultra casual.

I think he saunters because its a real long way too run at 1000 miles a hour!

But now the 1000 mile an hour hug has gone I doubt that it will come back.

What is that old saying...

Don't be sad that its gone

Be glad that it happened